2004-04-19 - 4:31 p.m.

Current Song: Sand In Your Eyes, Spacehog

Waking up this morning and coming to work, I felt like that zombie from the Thriller video who comes out of the sewer. Slowly, he slides back the manhole cover. Inching it slowly as it grates across the cement. Then, his grotesque, slightly pissed off face comes into frame as he braces his arms on the pavement and pulls himself up

and out of the sewer.

Current song: Bombtrack, Rage Against the Machine

This weekend was great but Sunday definitely sucked donkeyballs. And so, when the alarm sounded this morning, I had to pull myself ever so slowly from the stench ridden, depressing, and worthless Sunday and brace myself for the week to come. Much like that Thriller zombie, I had one thought on my mind. For him it was human flesh, for me it was getting my To-Do list finished finally.

And much like the zombie, I now get to break out in a totally cool, ultra-hip choreographed dance sequence.

The work that needed to be done today is finished; the car has been tuned-up, the appointments made, the bills and taxes paid, the benefits handled...

It's all falling in place again. Thus completes another one of my monthly cycles. I may not bleed, but I definitely bloat.

The money continues to roll in and I find myself edging closer and closer to my goal. As soon as my bank account reads $xxx, then I am AZ bound.

Current Song: Wear You Out, TV on the Radio

I'm wondering if I'm making the right decisions though. Is the 80hrs/week breakneck schedule worth it? Am I missing out on anything in the meantime? Hmmm, let's see...

Potential things I could be missing out on:

- Sleep: Ok, I'm prolly missing out on sleep. On an average night I'm getting about 6-7 hours of sleep, except wed and thurs when I have to work the SHC and the bar. Then I'm getting between 4-6. Sundays my body lets me sleep for about 9 to try and make up for the lost hours during the week. Missing out on sleep? Yes.

- Working out: Working 80hrs is leaving me pretty blanched when I get home, but still I'm finding ways to exercise. If I don't feel like lifting, I'm still getting out and running the different trails that Columbia has to offer. I'm also climbing the stairs at the SHC everyday which is averaging out to about 40 flights of stairs a day. Missing out on exercise? Not really.

- Music: The Taxmen is fun, and we just got promoted to be the Thursday night house band at Cody's every Thursday. We practice once or twice during the week, and I love the guys I'm making music with. Only downside? It's not my music, it's the Beatles. I still need to write and finish that oh-so-elusive demo I started last summer...which seems like eons ago. Missing out on music? Yes and no.

- Friends & Partying: My only open nights for going out or spending time with friends are Sun, Mon and Tues (And Sun doesn't count cuz no one seems to party on the Sabbath anymore.) That leaves Monday and Tuesday. Most of the time I'm too busy doin laundry or accomplishing other errands to go out. and the times I do, I usually end up leaving early on account of work in the morning. But, I am getting ready to move in with the boys so... Missing out on friends & partying? Kinda, but once I move in, I'll be with them 24/7.

Current Song: Authenticity, Harvey Danger

- Downtime and meditation: What I've lost in hanging out with my friends, I've made up with reading and meditating. In fact I've read a total of 11 novels (novel being any book over 400 pages) in only the last 3 months. That's a lot of reading hommie! Missing out on d-time and meditation: Not hardly.

Current Song: The Light and the Glass, Coheed and Cambria

And finally,

- Girls & Love (not necessarily in that order) Ugh, I don't even wanna touch this one. Ok, so it feels like I'm finding the satisfaction I need. I know in my mind that the relationship I might be forming now is only temporary. I want to pursue it, but to do so would be rather pointless. I AM leaving in January or February. If, after a year of us dating on and off, I can't get a commitment, or even a feeling that I'm continually loved and thought about...then what could I possibly accomplish in the few months left together? Thus, I have settled for what I have, content to accept the "We're together but not together" situation until February. Missing out on girls &/or love? Only to the extent that I let myself miss out. Like I've always said, (not to mention it's my favorite song lyric I've written in a while) Now's as good a time tostartagain.

Sigh. So the final consensus is that I'll stick with this pace in the hopes of getting away and starting again sooner rather than later.

On a lighter note, I thin I'm about to shit my pants. I refuse to drop Bombs over Baghdad while at work. I usually enjoy a quick stop by my apartment during my lunch break, in order to lighten the load in the comfortable and cool environment my own bathroom provides. However today I tanned and got lunch to go, so I missed my chance. Now I'm paying for it. It feels like a friggin I-70 traffic jam is working its way slowly through my nether regions. Lord have mercy.

Alright lets add 10 more songs to this list:

But first, current song: Changing of the Guards, Bob Dylan

1) Like A Rolling Stone, Bob Dylan

2) Round Here, Counting Crows

3) Good, Better Than Ezra

4) Everlong, Foo Fighters

5) Interstate Love Song, Stone Temple Pilots

6) Wonderwall, Oasis

7) Superstition, Stevie Wonder

8) London Calling, the Clash

9) A Lack of Color, Death Cab for Cutie

10) Fred Jones Part 2, Ben Folds

Alright already, help me out! Post some suggestions in the Guestbook! And please, post some comments for me to respond to!

Final song: Norwegian Wood (This Bird Has Flown), The Beatles

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